The story...
My rebellious spirit resisted efforts to fix, manage, or control me. Had I been more compliant, I likely would've received better grades, learned to play a cornet better, better understood what others were into, and been a part of more groups too. I do greatly appreciate the groups and relationships that I've been a part of; yet, I seemed driven towards freedom from group think and domineering controlling types. Sadly, this meant trying to deal with the rejection that goes along with a rebellious spirit.
The jobs that I seemed to flourish in, allowed me to exercise my independence and drive change in the processes that mostly converted inputs into outputs. Rebel against the status quo and change things to make them better. The jobs involved imagination, risk, reward, influence, and an internal need to succeed - I was naturally good at this type of work and change characterized my career. When things became too predictable, I moved on towards the next thing.
Was I born to walk this road or was I a product of my environment? Nobody knows the answer. I do believe that we all need every person to work out their unique abilities, skills and talents for the benefit of us all.
How might the only church in town be a place where all people would congregate even though some are rebels like me? I think we'd let each person work out their own life and provide opportunities for groups who would build relationships amongst congregates. Groups are good but the - North Star - purpose would always be for each person to work out their right relationship with God in Christ. That's the body of Christ.
Just for today...
"...what I view as a finely developed sense of responsibility may actually amount to a form of dominance." Hope for Today (p.183)
"...the man I married cannot be the source of my happiness or sorrow. The gift of life is personally mine - as his life belongs to him - to enjoy or destroy, as each of us wishes." One Day at a Time ([. 183)
"Ever'thing there is but lovin' leaves a rust on yo' soul." Langston Hughes
