The story...
The orthopedic surgeon showed me an MRI picture of my spine - the source of my misery. Yes, there was a surgical method to control or "fix" the problem. To help put the surgery choice in perspective; he showed me an MRI image of an old woman's spine that looked like a stack of crumbled bones - "she lived pain free." How did she live without pain? He said she was a peaceful woman whose back muscles were relaxed. If she tensed her strong back muscles around those crumbled bones then she surely could've produced pain and all the anxieties that go along with it.
I chose the surgery option and it was successful. For a season, I experienced relief from the pain caused from my back muscle tension around my crumbling spine and that bundle of nerves. My current reality is less restrictive and enjoyable then my past reality with the Spondylolisthesis. I'm glad I faced the reality of my situation and chose what seemed to be the best option. There were many who offered their do-nothing opinion based on the fearful consequences and peril that my surgery decision might mean.
Within the only church in town, attenders will witness those who live a peaceful life throughout the inevitable circumstances of each stage of life. They will witness real and fruitful relationships with God and people who seem to actually love themselves and their neighbors too. No, He didn't create us and leave us all alone.
Just for today...
"What kind of stuff is self-pity made of, that it can entrench in my mind and keep me miserable? . . . Self pity comes from concentrating on the negative aspects of life. . . To expect life to be tailored to our specifications is to invite frustration." One Day at a Time (p. 191)
"... many of us coped with an ever-changing situation in which our sense of reality changed from one minute to the next . . . we were devastated because reality didn't go away just because it was ignored. Our lives will remain unmanageable as long as we pretend that only half of the truth is real . . . I can't cope with something unless I acknowledge its reality." Courage to Change (p. 191)
"This is true; Light says so - It's still true; If'n I say NO!" Am I a Poet?
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