The story...
The surgeon showed me my spinal x-ray. "Your spondylolisthesis between your L4 and L5 vertebrae is pinching that bundle of nerves which is causing pain in both your back and your lower extremities. The surgery will align the two with metal rods and the impingements will be removed - of course their are risks." My life wasn't doable, I opted for the surgery, there were complications that I suffered through, yet the eventual outcome was positive - my fears were alleviated.
spondylolisthesis - From Wikipedia
I don't characterize myself as a fearful person, yet there are things I fear. The sum of my fears seem to fit within the following seven categories:
- Changes within the "game of life" requiring adaptation
- Living outside the will of God
- Loneliness
- Loss of loving relationships
- Loss of security for me and those I love
- Prison - loss of freedom
- Rejection
The only church in town will shine the light of God's revealed Word on our reality. The causes of our fear may remain yet solutions are attenable and available within the "Light."
Just for today...
"God grant me the wisdom to recognize the faults I am building into a wall, such a wall as cannot be penetrated even by love." One Day at a Time (p. 257)
"Why does a dog bark? I feel terror when I'm on the receiving end of ferocious barking. I suspect that a dog barks because of his own fear. If the dog really wanted to attack, he'd dispense with the barking and lunge for me." Hope for Today (p. 257)
No comments:
Post a Comment