The story...
My grandmother shared the game of solitaire with me - she loved to play. She, or maybe another person, told me that you could play a mental game of paying $52 for the deck of cards and earn $5 for every card that makes it to the top. Its a win/lose game. I've played this game imagining what might be and finding out what I was dealt. "If I get all 52 cards on top then I'm going to..."
Maybe this behavior is one of my learned defects - I stopped playing the game one day. Forty days passed between the first draft and the posting of this original story - stopping the solitaire habit was fruitful in unexpected ways. I'm not sure what replaced the solitaire time, or trigger to play it; but, life's more peaceful and I'm trusting God more.
The only church in town will offer our Creator's version of what a good life looks like. He doesn't tell us everything but does tell us enough to live a good life walking humbly with Him. For me, regularly investing my time playing, and hoping on, a win/lose game with a deck of cards isn't a good fit.
Just for today...
"What defects could possibly give me pleasure? Revenge, for one. I spend lots of time creating mental scenarios in which I punish those who have hurt me. I also get enjoyment from thinking that I am never wrong; in other words, I cling to pride . . . they prevent me from treating myself and others with love and respect." Courage to Change (p. 160)
"Imagining the not; Buying a toy - On my own; A lost boy." Am I a Poet?
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